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Through all of my life |
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I waver back and forth between |
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A belief and not |
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Believing in anything |
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In any solid shape |
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The unfettered mind |
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A deeper understanding that holds nothing |
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That let's sounds come in the ear |
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And just pass through without deciding what it was |
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If it was a jet or a dragon |
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It was merely a sound without a name or a picture |
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It was every possible thing at once |
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I barely ever get to be in this state |
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Just quick flashes by surprise |
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When I'm like standing by a car |
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Squinting my eyes |
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Caught off guard and unpicturesque |
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I used to sing this one song all the time |
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That I made up to try to cut through |
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When I'd find myself caught up |
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Entranced in certainty |
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Staring at a hill |
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And it went: |
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"Let's get out of the romance" |
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Over and over |
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"Let's get out of the romance" |
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"Please can I go through this life unscared to see that nothing stays the same" |
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"No one knows anything." |
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When I was younger and didn't know |
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I used to walk around basically begging the sky |
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For some calamity to challenge my foundation |
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When I was young |
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So imagine what it was like to watch up close a loved one die |
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And then look into the pit |
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I lived on the edge of it |
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And had to stay there |
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Joanne Kyger said: |
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"We fight incredibly through a hideous mishmash of inheritance |
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Forgiving for deeper stamina |
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That we go on |
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The world always goes on |
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Breaking us with its changes |
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Until our form, exhausted, runs true." |
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Out of nowhere love returned |
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I saw what looked like a God who walks among us |
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I met her, we fell so in love |
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She is angelic, miraculous, I totally lost my mind |
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And poured everything into this sea, this ocean |
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And when I came to I saw my face in a store window's reflection |
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And there was fear behind those eyes |
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Now I'm back where I was when I was 20 |
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Trying to stop clinging to a dream |
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And let an old idea of love dissipate |
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Back into formless rolling waves |
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Of discomfort and uncertainty |
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The true state of all things |
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I want to wade out into dark water |
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Hand in hand with you |
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I played this song for you and all you heard were the words |
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"Discomfort and uncertainty" |
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You asked "How do we get back to how it was?" |
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And that's when I started to know |
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That I might be in it alone |
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Devoted to an unknown |
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Homelessness enthroned |
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Us and the kids all wind-blown |
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Courageous as bone |
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Lying down in a storm |
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Steadfast, newborn |
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A house with no door |
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Exhausted form |
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In your eyes I found home |
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I believed you and dove |
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And oh my God |
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When we swam together for a little bit |
